Memorial Day Reflection

So if you read my wife's blog and mine, you will see the theme.
Too long running along without paying much attention has led us to a place that is unfamiliar, unforgiving and uncomfortable at best.
But, now, we know it.
Today, she mentions reclaiming our lives. I am stuck on a reborn/reclaim my soul theme (have been for some time), and we are both down to the simplify and focus on real stuff idea.
It's so damn strange how quickly shit like this happens. It's really just a part of the big 'it all goes by so quickly' theme, but even though we all mention it, we rarely care to do anything about it.

I know, you are thinking do what about it? I appreciate that, since it seems to me that it was only yesterday I was grumbling about how far off my next holiday was (memorial day) and now here it is. I was just a brand new parent (oops, 7 years ago). I just moved up here to Seattle (oops, 10 years ago). So believe me, I get it.
But it's not about altering time itself, it's about using it to make yourself fullfilled and happy and living life to the dream.

I am as bad as anyone at saying 'I don't or I didn't have time to get to that'. That, by the way, is an absolute bullshit statement. It is a conflict avoidance statement, because the reality is 'I didn't choose to make the time for that'. That is ALWAYS the real deal.

Think about the different people you know and how many times you may have asked 'How do they have time for that?'. Whatever it is. Truth is, they have no more time than you, they just choose to spend it differently. Priorities and what is important take precedence.

The wrap-up here goes like this:
We tend to go through lots of fast motions without really going anywhere. We do this because we let other set our priorities and 'what is important' and neglect ourselves and our own needs in the process. Then one day (like today) we wake up and say 'what the hell am I doing'. I need to slow down and do for me and screw being a rat on a treadmill for someone or something else (that I don't really care about anyway).

David Byrne of the Talking Heads expressed the 'my god, what have I done' and 'how did i get here' beautifully, and this is the theme for Memorial day and me. Awakening to surroundings that are of my own making, yet completely foreign, only to realize I need to try again.

And here we go......
Later-E