Fast, furious and somewhat funny world

That would be funny peculiar more than funny ha-ha, although there have certainly been some ha-ha moments since last I posted (end of July).

I'm not sure that it has put me on any road to hell that I wasn't already driving, but my intention to post daily and let it all out has been just that (intention) for nearly two months now.

It crossed my mind, but then again, so did many things, and I have found myself having less and less time despite my irritation with having less and less time (the irritation didn't help). So, since July, my workload has gone up substantially while at the same time I am trying to get my life together to move on to other employment, we went to the beach for a week at the end of August and that certainly flew by too quickly, we started the kids in school at the beginning of September, which now has the whole family up and working by 6AM, and so much more.

Schedules, field trips, tasks, vacations.....wow. And now I prep to enjoy my 10th anniversary with Athena. 10 years, and again....wow.

Looking at the way 10 years has flown past, it is little wonder that a couple of hectic months can pass by like a day. I'll take this and reaffirm my intention to post every day, with the understanding that this is a virtual day, perhaps only distantly related to the actual passage of time.

Neat times, a little nervous, a little giddy, I would like to say somewhat relaxing but I'm not sure that part is true. We are in the process of considering job changes, moving somewhere new, getting involved in more community/activism type activities, watching the rapidly approaching election unfold as the economy collapses, and working on several lifestyle changes, while at the same time continuing to do the norm (work, sleep, eat, live, learn, play). It's a lot, and the day goes from 5AM to 8PM for the boys, to 10PM for us, without much of a break in the flow.

There is a huge sense of not really knowing what may happen tomorrow (the nervous and giddy part), both personally and globally. I have been marginalizing myself at work for nearly a year now, and although the dependence on what I do is still strong, it lessens daily. Add to that the fact that my boss isn't sure that his future (or the Seattle office's in general) is very secure and we have professional uncertainty. The 'where we live' issue (wanting to move and get out of Suburbia) was very stressful for a time, but has tapered back to a mild nervousness and uncertainty. Not sure exactly where we want to end up, but positive it's not here.

Globally, I can't say that I feel great about the upcoming Presidential Election. I'm nervous and uncertain that the country will do (what I think to be) the right thing to move forward into a 'better' world. Especially now that we are faced with what my opinion thinks of as the scariest VP candidate in my lifetime (and probably more). Furthermore, I can't know for sure if my mortgage and house are secure (not that I really care that much, since I want to leave anyway), so some added uncertainty.

But all of that, which is the nervous part, is overwhelmed by a renewed feeling of optimism for the future. There is a hope of better things to come, although it's scope is currently focused on just my family, and that change will be for the better, regardless. There is a renewed appreciation for the world with all it's features and faults, that is pulling me to get more involved in a greater community. There is a renewed wellspring of creativity and thought that is swelling within me and manifesting in some fantastic and fun ways. This is the neat part.

Put them together and I'm left with the giddy feeling I mentioned.

If nothing else, these are fast and wild times to live. I'm enjoying them, and if I had but one request, it would be that it went by a little slower and I had more time to relax. Oh well, it's just about October now, and with the lovely proton collider supposed to start whacking beams together this month, it may be a mute point (again, nervous/giddy) on a global scale. The entertaining of possibilities from that endeavor are endless.

Thus, with no real point to this post, I will leave it there, in hopes I can continue to get up here and say things that are a bit more poignant (at the least, with a point).

Later-E